death.

is the one thing i never thought would happen to you.. i saw you before you died. saturday.. you didnt say hi or anything. you walked past me and tyler said you guys would be right back.. you never came back. i get an IM from tyler saying "anthony got in a horrible accident." i freaked out and asked what happened. all he said was he got hit on uclid and ball.. and i asked if he was okay.. he said he has noo idea.. i never got an IM back. my phone didnt turn on the whole day. than around 6 i went to tmobile and i got a new battery and i turned on my phone. i go on aim and i see RIP ANTHONY as tylers away message and i didnt belive it. no one could get ahold on tyler.. he didnt IM me back. i finally text julain and ask if he died and he said yeah :/ i started crying, i didnt think i would. i looked at all our old IM's. they always make me smile. you were always a dick to me, you were sucha an asshole but you were always kidding.. you'd tell the funniest things. i'd always laugh when you'd IM me, even when you were being mean. only a couple times you were nice to me. you told me you liked me, and you denied it. but you'd seem like you did. i dont know if you did or not cause you were always so fucking scarstic. i miss your smile, your eyes, your stupid little gap in your teeth, your voice and the way you'd sit there, the things you said to me. everything. i dont know what im gonna do when your not at the bpm with tyler when im there. i juss want you here. i juss wanna see your smile again. i never got the kiss you told me i'd get, i never took you to sushi and to get you choclate milk like i promised i'd get you, you said that's all you live for. so i thought if i got it for you you'd be happy.. now i cant and i cant belive it. i dont think i can look at a macheete, choclate milk, sushi, that stupid video game you always played, listen to afi, eat taco bell, or anything. i dont know what to do. you know how i felt about you, and i never knew how you felt and it sucks cause ill never know. whenever i hear your name now ima remember you, trust me ill never forget you. you were sucha an amazing kid. you might not think so, but you were. even id we've known each other for about a month and a half your always gonna be in my heart anthony... i miss you and i cant wait to see your amazingly incridble smile again.
you had me at hello. =/