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i dont know how to tell a boy i dont like him, escipally when he likes me sosososos much =/
he's been fucked over like 29427352 times and has a realllly low selfsteeeem and i dont wanna hurt him. i promised him our good friend i wouldnt hurt him but he's like not my type. i want someone TOTALLLY diffrent. there's something about him i dont like and i cant figure it out and like i dont know. FUUUUUUCK. i dont wanna hurt him. i mean i wanna keep him as a friend but i dont want him as my boyfriend. i dont even wanna boyfriend right now, or being 'tied' down cause i'm young and i juss wanna have fun without having to worry about hurting him. and if i dont get with him or hurt him than ill lose a good friend and i cant risk that.
WHATTHEFUCK do i do?! >:/ shitshitshitshitshitshitshit.
mm, so since im in a bad mood already I GOT CHEATED ON MORE THAN ONCE. LIKE 7 FUCKING TIMES?! bahahaha. wow. and the sad thing, his like bestfriend told me and not him. like what the fuck, grow some balls and actually ADMIT IT. like yeah im fucking pissed but like i wouldnt be as mad if he fucking admitted it and said sorrry.. if hes sorrry. but alll i want is for him to admit it. fuck obviously im not goood enough if in 2, maybe 3 weeks my boyfriend at the time cheated on me =/ wow. great way of making me feeel good. oh fucking welll.
OH & i got told im like one of the biggest sluts ever. if not the bigggest! mm, yeah. i guess i spread my legs open more than the plauge?! wtf. i fucking love douchebags.


blah, on a better note im loosing weight (: