who's gonna break your fall?

i need happiness in my life.
i need brandi, vee, chuck, and so many more people back in my life.
i talked to my momma today and she thinks the only reason i havent been happy is because the people i need the most have been walking out of my life like its just so damn easy..
why do i lose all these fucking friends? what am i doing wrong? =/ obviously im doing something fucking wrong if the only people i really care about are slipping right through my fingers.. i wish i knew how to get them back. but i guess they left for a reason? so if were ment to be friends, they'll come back right? i dont even know anymore. the one person i thought i would never lose is slowly leaving me. and im losing faith in everything.
what happened to the day me and vee went to the fair and we took that picture where she's holding my arm, and i told her i'd never let her go..
what happened to chuck texting me cute things and "ALWAYS" being there for me?
what happened to me and brandi being hoface& sugarmuffin forever?
shit happens i guess.






i dont even care about having a boyfriend anymore, all i want is my old life back.
god, is this too much to ask for?