so much to say, so little time.

CHUCK LOVES ME AGAIN! :D
we kicked it sunday when i came home from the river and everything went back to normal. finally i got him back. now i need to fix things with brandi.. it seems like she dosent wanna hangout with me anymore. whatever though. she has victoria and jacob. fucking coool. i never thought we'd fall apart. guess i was wrong. oh well dude. shit happens i guess. ive lost so many friends in the past couple years it dosent even affect me anymore. i juss want my bestfriend back, i juss want her to come down all the time. oh wait, she wont cause she cant leave her "friends" not even to see me for a day. yep. i live fucking 15 minutes away. i can come pick you up all the time but no. you dont want too. its chill. dont trip. i really dont think i can have a REAL bestfriend anymore. not after vee. not after that cunt fucked up my life. oh and she had to fucking audacity to fucking text me saying "i miss you" blah blah blah. than finally i told her she fucked up my life and im done. i cant go back to her. i cant go be bestfriends with her again cause if she dropped me for vince once, she'll do it again. fuck "bestfriends" there's no such thing as bestfriends FOREVER! fuck that shit. who needs a bestfriend?! i dont. i can depend on myself. ive already learned after vee fucked me over and i had nooone and when i was dealing with all this bullshit and brandi wasnt there i had to deal with it myself and i figured out how to be strong and deal with it by myself. so fuck you. im not ready to say goodbye yet but i know its gonna happen soon. real soon. goodbye's are easy for me now. after what happened with vee i got strong. im changing. and its scaring me. im not the old bre i use to be. what's going on with me?!? i dont know. there's so much i need to figure out right now..