after the things weve been though, i still want you.

why does life have to work like this?
things go so well for a little bit, than turn to shit, than go amazing again, than turn to shit?! why? like why?! soemone tell me why. i cant handle it. im too weak to handle all this stress and bullshit. i know im 17, but fuck. im not an adult yet. im still a baby. i juss wanna go back to the simople years, where i thought boys had cooties, for school all we had to do was color and take naps, and where i never got grounded cause i was the little innocent girl who never did anything wrong.
everythings so DIFFRENT now.

i played games for too long, and i lost the boy i was seeing.
im slipping in school, and its only the 4th week.
im grounded again, cause im slippin in school.
and i dont even know.
fuck this. im over it.
i juss wanna go to the river, or like somewhere far away.

im not gonna be with tori like all weekend, shes gonna be with tino.
this will be the first weekend in FOREVER i wont see her.
i wonder how im gonna handle it.
shes the only one im myself around, and the only one i like hanging out with.
everyone else can fuck off.



i hate this.
someone take me away): please.