run..

this isnt the first time someone IMPORANT to me picked drugs, a boyfriend/boy, and there OTHER "BESTFRIEND" over me so im use to it. but i never thought you'd actually do this to me. i never thought the day would come where when we hung out and i looked at you.. you werent the same. but it happened. your not the same bestfriend i had for almost 2 years. your changing and it sucks. i thought you were gonna be the only friend i could count on to not change but i guess i was wrong.. i feel like i cant come to you anymore because its like your not my hoeface anymore. and it sucks because you were the one person i always went to for advice. for everything and now i cant because it'll be like me talking to some random person i dont know.. not you): i wish you never turned to drugs, i wish you never replaced me with her, i wish you never got sucked into that group. i wish it was me and you all the time, going out to eat, going to the block and having sleeepovers. but noooo. i fucking love you more than anyone will ever fucking understand but i cant look at you the same. things will never be the same. nothing can bring you back. when my mom asks how your doing i usually say good because well be texting nonstop like we use to but now i say i dont know and kinda turn my head away. i need a fucking time machine. im trying so hard to just give up but looking back on the 2 years i cant. there's something that's holding me back from juss saying goodbye and moving on and i thik its cause your the one who made me stronger..