im melting in your eyes, like my first time i caught fire.

i guess everythings slowly going back to normal :) or at least bettter.

its just another pretty lie, cause i break down everytime you come around

what the fuck is going on!?
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nothing's going right. everything's slowly slipping through my fingers.
shit's getting to the point where i cry myself to sleeep everynight AGAIN.


i need to get out of califorina for a while, or at least out of OC
someone kidnap me, and take me to the river.

never say never

i always do something wrong.
FUCK, WHATEVER.

if you be my sunset, ill be your sillohoutte

NO more hookup's, no more liking boys, no more getting fucked over. NOTHING. i want ONE boy and that's it. my heart's set on him and i'm not gonna give up on him.


i love you.

run..

this isnt the first time someone IMPORANT to me picked drugs, a boyfriend/boy, and there OTHER "BESTFRIEND" over me so im use to it. but i never thought you'd actually do this to me. i never thought the day would come where when we hung out and i looked at you.. you werent the same. but it happened. your not the same bestfriend i had for almost 2 years. your changing and it sucks. i thought you were gonna be the only friend i could count on to not change but i guess i was wrong.. i feel like i cant come to you anymore because its like your not my hoeface anymore. and it sucks because you were the one person i always went to for advice. for everything and now i cant because it'll be like me talking to some random person i dont know.. not you): i wish you never turned to drugs, i wish you never replaced me with her, i wish you never got sucked into that group. i wish it was me and you all the time, going out to eat, going to the block and having sleeepovers. but noooo. i fucking love you more than anyone will ever fucking understand but i cant look at you the same. things will never be the same. nothing can bring you back. when my mom asks how your doing i usually say good because well be texting nonstop like we use to but now i say i dont know and kinda turn my head away. i need a fucking time machine. im trying so hard to just give up but looking back on the 2 years i cant. there's something that's holding me back from juss saying goodbye and moving on and i thik its cause your the one who made me stronger..

SO OVER IT.

get over the fact that i broke your "heart". you dont need to be a fucking asshole. i said fucking sorry, i know i fucked up but that dosent mean you can make me cry. YOU KNOW IM IN LOVE WITH YOU. yeah i didnt tell you cause i was scared. we've been fucking over this. i dont expect you to like me again, i juss want you back as a friend. i want things to be how they fucking use too be. i cant handle seeing you and not being able to hug you without you getting all ehh and when i talk or say one thing you give me the scarstic remarks. IF YOU DONT WANNA BE FRIENDS ANYMOE FUCKING TELL ME SO I DONT WASTE MY TIME TRYING TO MAKE A FUCKING EFFORT TO BE CLOSE AGAIN.
why the fuck are you doing this to me?

all i wanted to do was to fall in love, be in loveeee.

i give up on you. you've changed too much. i know ive always said i wouldnt let you go, but i am now. i juss dont know how to tell you.. :/ there's no hope in us anymore. NOTHING will ever be the same.
i guess ill hold on for a little bit longer and see how our "friendship" works out.
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