i got accused of being a pill popper today.
by the lady who gave me birth.
i get outta the shower, get dressed, walk in my room, and she's standing there and she
has my note from annie, and she says "what's this about?!" and she shows me the note, and half way down it says "did you take the pills i gave you?" and i said, i didnt take them, and were yelling at each other, and and im crying cause she's accusing me of being a fucking pillpopper, and she takes my phone, and goes through it.
and she comes back in and trys to talk to me about it, at this time im bawling my eyes out, and shes yelling at me, than she walks out, i hear my dad say "what'd she do to get her phone taken away?" and she says im taking pills, and she says something else but i couldnt hear her. my dad walks in and says how im a disapoitment and all this bullshit.
its pretty pathiec how everyone thinks im some kinda druggie, and this peice of shit.
im not a druggie, yeah ive done drugs in the past, but its not like i still fucking do them or anything.
i try to please everyone else around me and i cant cause everyone expects to much outta me, and they all just break me.
im sick of losing friends to thier boyfriends. its been like this for like two years. they promise me they wont put there boyfriends in front of me, and like a day later, thats there main proierty. and im juss there. its happend at least five times in the past two years and im DONE.
and im sick of boys using me. i cant find someone who dosent juss want sex, or pictures, or dirtytalking. ill talk to a boy, and it'll get brought up, and ill say nooo i wont send a picture, or no i wont dirtytalk, and they say bye and i wont hear from them again. i dont understand why i cant find someone. am i really that ugly? everyone at least has a boyfriend/guurlfriend, or a hookup thats gonna turn into a relationship. all three of my bestfriends have boys. ive always been the one who's been a loner. ive had one boyfriend my whole life, and ive been single for about a year. everyone always says "stay posi bre" or they'll say "you'll find one, dont worry." how long are you gonna keep saying that? ive heard for the past fucking year, and its getting old. i juss hate being single. i wanna find someone =/